It hit me like a box of rocks, and it hurt. It really hurt! I sat there, on the couch looking at my one and only soul mate. I burst into tears. “What’s wrong?” He asked. “Today, at the Doctor’s appointment they told me I couldn’t have children.” I sobbed even harder. He hugged me. We were chasing our dreams. Our every hope and dream of a family now gone. My other half did all he could do. Reassure me that he loved me.
I told him I felt like less of a women. “A woman that can’t produce childeren! What the hell kind of women is that!” He kissed me and listened to me. Then he told me he loved me, and it didn’t make me any less of a woman. He said we would travel just me and him all over the world. We could do things that people with children could not do. That dream of having a family was just a pipe dream. Now…Back to reality. We were chasing a different dream. The only dream we had left.
Christina Oliver- Capturing the Story of a Lifetime
Snapshots of a Life 
I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope you find some peace and clarity and you recreate your dreams.
I have, and I finally have a baby now. He is eight months old. This is part two of a series of true short stories based on my life called Chasing Dreams. I hope this gives other people hope. Just because Doctors tell you it cant happen, it doesnt mean that it wont.
I’m so sorry for what you’r going through. Speaking as a man who can’t have children, I must admit it really hurt me. It also contributed to a series of events which almost destroyed my life. I never realised how much of an impact that had on me until it was too late. I did write a post about it, I hope it helps:
http://arranbhansal.com/2014/04/22/dealing-with-male-infertility/
Take care
Arran