Sometimes when I’m writing I hit a wall. I wouldn’t call it writers block, I would just say that I am in too into my charcters.
While my fiction is not true, and my Charcters are made up, I often get ideas from real life. Then I incorporate the lessons that I learn from life into my book.
Tonight one of my Characters Jen lost her Grandfather. As I wrote this I couldn’t help but think of my Grandfather, and I just had to stop because it is too deep.
“This is it, are you ready?” My Mother asked.
“Are we really ever ready for a moment like this?”
“This is it. It is time to say Goodbye.” Mom grasped my hand and we walked to the coffin together
“It’s Pa paw, and he doesn’t look like himself. He looks so small.”
“I know sweetie. The body is just a shell. He has moved on.”
“No his spirit lives in us Mom.”
I’m not gonna lie. I cried. I really miss my own Grandfather, and I know that his spirit, his DNA lives in me.
I can still hear him telling me to do what I love. I am doing that now. If ever there was a time where I wish I could talk to my Grandfather, it would be now. I want to share what I love with him. The Great-Grandson he has. I would want him to meet my Husband, because the have the same sense of humor. I would want to share my love of writing with him, and be the first person to read my Novel.
This is difficult for me to write, even though it is fiction, because I know how it is to lose the only Grandfather you have ever known, that understands what a fierce and stubborn person you can be.
I felt as if my Grandfather was guiding my hands as I was writing. This book is turning out to be more than I had ever imagined.